"A Good Tired"

Is this what our prior generations felt?

I zoned out the last couple hours watching Intern on Netflix. I’m recovering on the couch. And this is a good thing. I didn’t know how to recuperate before. This, over a lifetime, led to years of fatigue forcing me into a deep rest and reset. Now I embrace the downtime. No guilt. No shaming. Just grateful acceptance.

The last 24 hours involved an unexpected harvest of our apple tree, making fresh pies, dropping off 4 girls to school, replacing sourdough starter that was dropped, doing a shop in town after realizing we were out of dog food, and taking Wilson (our rough collie) in to get his stitches out. 

As I curl up on the couch, tears flow out of me (I've learned this is a healthy way I release). The relief ripples throughout my body. It feels like "a good tired." One that comes with taking care of what’s most important to me. My people, our land, our animals…. 8 years ago I left the corporate world and felt like I’ve been redesigning my life for alignment ever since. The ongoing dysregulation of my nervous system was telling me I was misaligned for a long time. Today, I feel like I’ve crawled my way to a better place. It’s aligned. I’m so much more aligned. And I’m oh so grateful to be experiencing a more holistic and peaceful type of fulfillment. 

From here, I feel like I can rebuild with a deeper and clearer sense of self and purpose. Finally, it's been a looong road!

Posted on social Oct 26, 2024